Coming to a conclusion

So it's time I wrap up the year. It's been a VERY good year, and a VERY good semester.

Last year's resolutions
1. Grow up
2. Become more adventurous and willing to take risks
3. Eat healthy
4. Work out
5. Obviously quit leading boys on
6. Quit sayin' freakin and eff
7. Find a sweet guy
8. Figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life
9. Let go of Facebook a little more..
10. Get rid of creepers!
11. Meet new people and make new friends
12. Open up and let others in more
13. Live life to its fullest

1. I met this first goal for sure! I've grown up dramatically I believe. From moving two hours away from home to paying for my own college and everything, to trying coffee and sitting in a scary automobile shop alone, I've definitely grown up!

2. I met this one too! I'm putting myself out there and giving people a chance and I love it!

3. This goal was not met. I chugged pop and ate candy like always.

4. This goal was DEFINITELY not met. There's no time!

5. I might have gotten worse with this one.....Not good!

6. I met this one I think!! I never say eff...Freakin', still need to work on that.

7. I've met some sweet guys this semester but not that one specific guy whom I will date and marry. At least, I don't think so...but who knows.

8. I feel like I'm getting closer to this one. I feel like I'm majoring in the right thing finally and I'm really starting to enjoy it. As for the future after college, that's kind of still a mystery.

9. The facebook thing is iffy. Sometimes I think I'm pretty good of letting go of it...but I still always have to get caught up with my newsfeed when I get back on!

10. I think I've gotten rid of creepers? At least the creepers I had last year! haha!

11. Best goal met this year! I've met soooo many great people at my new college and I love them all. Feels like I've known some of them FOREVER :)

12. I've gotten closer with certain people and have opened up to them so this was kind of met.

13. Most definitely! My friends and I plan so many things to enjoy and we are having an absolute blast!



This year's resolutions so far..I'll add on.

1. Work out
2. Do more caring things for people
3. Eat healthy

Sometimes I feel like I have the best life

I have the best family

I've kept the same friends for as long as I can remember and keep meeting new, amazing people as time goes on...

I am so blessed. I shouldn't complain as much as I do...I shouldn't worry about the little things, like money situations and such.

Ohhhh life :) I adore you.

Last year's resolutions

These were my top three resolutions for last year...and now, we're just going to look at these and reflect...I'm not sure if I met any of these goals!! HA

1. GROW UP - I am a very immature person and very naive. I need to step up and get out in the world and do something with myself..instead of just staying sheltered for the rest of my life.

2. EAT HEALTHY - I'm addicted to sweets, pop, etc. You know, all that horrible stuff for you. Yeah, I eat candy like it's candy. Anyways, I don't think I'll be one of those people to completely cut out pop or something completely for the whole year, but it wouldn't hurt to cut down.

3. BE MORE ADVENTUROUS - I'm not a risk taker. At all. This year I hope to not take things so seriously and not plan everything out. I need to be more spontaneous and just go for something, without having second thoughts.

Just a bunch of random that i've been thinking about

-I've enjoyed laughing hysterically and losing track of time

-life is too, too short to worry about the little things, like getting a C in history...it won't matter in the long run

- i have too many stuffed animals but a lot less stuff in my room than i thought

-those people who don't want you in their life don't deserve you in their life

-i'm becoming obsessed with hot chocolate and hot beverages just recently

-I'm so blessed - my family includes some of the best people

- i kinda want to have someone special around for Christmas...

-Looking back on pictures makes me extremely happy, even if some of those good times are long gone, i'll always have the wonderful memories

-i want a cream winter coat for Christmas and happiness for my family

-I am loving where I'm at. I'm enjoying meeting new people. Bring on the new challenges because I am ready.

Stress..

So since I'm not doing homework, I'll blog. It's not like I don't have homework; I have plenty of things I could be dong....In fact, a whole list...

1. I have a drawing due tomorrow, which isn't even close to being finished.
2. A 2-3 page page, a 3-4 page paper and a presentation all due on the first of December, all for the same class.
3. Lots of cleaning to do in this dorm room
4. A 5-7 page reflection paper
5. training for a job online

And that's just the beginning guys. But here I am, blogging....it's not even like I'm a serious blogger anymore either, so that just shows how much I don't want to do homework!

There are exactly six days until Thanksgiving break, school days that is...then when we return there are ten days left until Christmas....though I might be working during Christmas vacation...exciting right? Another fun thing to fill up my spare time that does not exist.
But here are the things I need to start saving up for, in new particular order:
Tuition for school
books for the next semester
new screen for laptop
new phone with unlimited texting
a new car that isn't older than me
apartment once i grow up

Yeah......My life. It revolves around money....and I have to go Christmas shopping sometime and have a ton of people on my list...it's bad....

I also went through pictures on my computer and deleted a ton....it was sad..going through old memories..

this was a boring one. i don't even care!

I’m tired. At 10 p.m. I am honestly exhausted. This week hasn’t been so bad. I mean, we finally got the 125th Anniversary week of the college over and done with. And the homecoming was this last week. I’m basically just ready for October to be over and for Thanksgiving to be here.

My cousin got married last Saturday. It was a GREAT weekend. Time with the family is the absolute best. I didn’t get to see PC though which was sad. I’m hoping Thanksgiving will be the time to see him but who knows!


I have like two A’s out of all of the classes I am taking. The rest are high B’s and then my lovely high D in History. I’m going to have to work my butt off just to pull a B on in that class. That is, a low B.

I haven’t been extremely stressed, just with the usual homework and such. I seriously thought I have appendicitis tonight, which was rather terrifying.
This weekend should be enjoyable. Planning on going to some Halloween dance which should be okay I guess..I've decided to dress as a flapper because I’m too lazy and poor to buy anything extreme. I learned how to make my hair into a short bob and bought feathers to stick on my head, so I guess I’m set? Then on Saturday, some volunteer work from 8 am to 12 p.m. Then Andrew and I are gonna make Halloween cupcakes, and read the Tempest. On Sunday a few of us are going to go Trick or Treating because we’re super cool.

That’s all really. I found this jacket at Goodwill for just $1.94. I’m excited.

It's the little things

Okay here it goes.

After being away for almost two months, I don’t even know what to update. I can honestly say that I’ve never been so busy in my life. I’ve been through beep and back..TWICE. Haha. No, but seriously….My life has had its ups and downs in the last month. I don’t really want to get into the details but let’s just say I’ve had to have more than one break down, which soooo isn’t me.

I let the little things get to me. I swear, People were testing me beyond my strength a month ago or so and I had just about had it. I take everything to heart and I had had just about enough of it. My attitude was out of control, my head was spinning, and I felt sick to my stomach for being such a brat.

On a positive note, I have the best friends and family in the world. And when I say the best, I mean THE BEST. Sadly, I haven’t exactly been the best friend to them lately.

I haven’t talked to Nicole on Facebook for longer than ten minutes for God knows how long. Usually I’m on enough to talk to her for a good thirty minutes, just to update each other on our lives. I’m sorry Nicole! I will really get around to calling you, hopefully sooner than later. Then we’ll be able to bond and laugh, because I miss you my friend.

I received a text from Christa last night and it was very sweet. She just reminded me that she thinks of me often and loves me. It’s nice to hear that. I usually try and send a card or text out to my friends letting them know that I love and care for them but lately, gosh, I just haven’t been doing it.

And Andrew, deserves more than one apology from me. He’s been there for me for the past month and half more than I could ever ask for. He’s had to deal with me breaking down, whining, stressing out, and just plain being a jerk to him….And he doesn’t deserve that, not one bit.

I know there’s more friends who I owe an apology to but I have to write a paper now.

It’s those little things that mean the world to me. Like I said earlier, I let the little things get me down, but it’s also those little things that bring me back up.

Sunshine outside helps brighten my mood.

A good laugh with friends in the newspaper room.

A visit from my family.

A compliment always makes my day better.

A phone call from my dad.

A good conversation with a friend. Just recently I’ve made good friends with a staff member on campus. He is so sweet to me and so much fun to talk to. It’s nice knowing that at least there’s someone who cares about my well-being here at this school.

But really, this school is good for the most part. I don’t want to sound negative and make it sound like it’s just plain awful. It’s just a few little things here and there. I’m just going to try and focus on the positive things in my life right now, and not concentrate on the negative things.

So that’s all you guys. I know there’s more but like I’ve mentioned, my paper….my life…whatever else I have to do.

This is what friends are for

I seriously have the best people in my life. I'm literally living for the weekends. I used to live for the weekends so I could go home and be with the family but now I'm living to see my friends and spend times with them!

On Friday two old friends of mine and one new friend went roller skating! It was hilarious. I hadn't been there since I was ten. Needless to say, I struggled quite a bit and probably looked dumb but it was fun. After skating we headed to Burger King and then to Andrew's house to watch a movie. Two of his friends came over and we bonded until 3:30 in the morning. Yessssssss.


Saturday morning we really didn't do a whole lot. Joc, me, Tony, and Truston hit up the Pizza Hut buffet. Then Joc and I headed into Wal Mart to get supplies for the cook out at Andrew's house that night. We laid out on his hammock for awhile tipping over backwards in it, cracking up. Around seven, the cook out started and Joc's fam was there, Andrew's fam, and some friends of Matthew. My family wasn't there which I guess is kind of weird. But then again, my friends' families are like my family so it's really nice having them all around. We ate, we talked, we laughed, we took pictures. Towards the end of the night we decided to lay out and stargaze. Andrew said he saw two shooting stars. I don't believe him. I still always manage to miss them....We laid out on a blanket and at one point I swear we laughed for five minutes straight. I could NOT breathe! It was so funny...These are the moments I live for. Just being with friends without a care in the world.


Around 11 we headed to one of Andrew's friend's house for a party. They had adorable little kittens there that we all played with. We basically just sat around and talked. Best party I've ever attended. Ha.

Sunday we headed to Joc's church service..fun times. Then she headed to her dad's house and Andrew and I hung out for a bit until Nicole came! YAY! I hadn't seen her since May so it was exciting. We went to the mall and bought each other dresses for our birthdays. She bought me this adorable lace dress:


It's sooo cute! I'm excited to wear it. I need to get a man...or someone to go on cute random dates with! I always need to buy more hangers because this town is tearing me up. I've bought so many clothes already...I got this cute green dress from Goodwill:

I'll probably wear it tomorrow.

What else? Oh, Nicole, Andrew, and I sat around on the hammock and had deep conversations. Always fun.

Today I went to lunch with my dad, uncle, and brother. Then Dylan and I hung out for the day. We went over to Joc's house and played cards and a board game for like four hours with her family. :)

I'm really enjoying it though...everything really. The school is good. Classes are good. I know the town well. I have friends that aren't far and I have friends' families here that I know I can count on....

Like I've said before and will say again, "Nothing is going according to plan; it's going better." :)

a new life

To my faithful blog readers, I apologize. According to a friend, I haven't updated in over two weeks.

Everything here is wonderful. I've only been here for a little over a week and it already feels like home. Maybe that's because it used to be home.


My roommate is super nice and we get along great which is nice. My classes are all good for the most part. Everything is pretty organized. I've been able to hang out with old friends. I've made A LOT of acquaintances. I've gone to church both Sundays that I have been here. The cafeteria food isn't horrible. I didn't have to take out a certain loan because the newspaper job is helping me pay it off. I went to the movies with two new friends the other night. My closet space is huge.


On the bad side, my books cost a lot of money. I haven't even attempted to look for a job. I've pondered changing my major again. I'm still a procrastinator and I'm still addicted to Facebook. But hey, what's new?


This is life though. These are the best times of your life, right? My list of things to do grows each and every day. I really, really need to get another job so I can start saving up for a car that's only ten years younger than me rather than twenty. I really don't have any extra time. I pondered laying off this semester and doing the paper and everything and then next semester having zero afternoon classes, only early 8 a.m. classes so that I would have the whole afternoon open for a job. This means I would have zero social life but hey, at least I'm getting it this semester? I don't know. What do you guys think? No, seriously, COMMENT fools!


I have no Labor Day plans. I pondered going home but my mom is working for the most part and Dylan won't even be there so that's not going down!



There's my update.

It's so sad to say good bye but think how sad it'd be if you'd never said hello

I can seriously say that I love this boy. No, not in a romantic way, but as in very good friends.



He’s the one guy who knows exactly how to get under my skin and irritate me to no end. I’ve had to deal with him making fun of my feet and giving me crap for eating food all the time. Yet he’s also the one who knows just what to say to make me laugh. I mean, c’mon, at one time his nickname for me was Nuts.

I thought it'd be appropriate to add a candid shot of us. This is a normal picture of us - him saying something rude to me. I look completely disgusted while he's just being his normal joking self.



I’ve known him since he was in fourth grade. I still remember him and Dylan tying Christa and I up in their backyard. I even knew this boy when his voice was still high and he was eight or more inches shorter than me!

Over the years we've become closer and closer. We’ve camped, visited Chicago, rode the combine, hung out at the house, and even went to prom together one year.







Patrick is one who has been there for me. Whether it was on Facebook chat to listen to me whine about my “problems” or just knowing that I could count on him to say something funny to put me in a better mood. He’s one of the people that I was able to share exciting news with or vent to. He’d usually be honest with me and just tell me how it was.



This is also a boy who I can actually stand talking to on the phone with for two hours. I hate talking on the phone so that definitely says something about him.



I didn’t know how much this boy and his friendship meant to me until I had to actually say good bye yesterday. As most of you know, I’m not the type of girl to cry. But after we said our goodbyes, I got pretty teary and cried for most of the ride home. I absolutely hate having to leave people. I know it’s not permanent but I probably won’t see him for six months or so. And after spending so many times together, it’s just hard. By Christmas who knows how much will have changed. Who knows if we will have kept in touch. We’re going separate ways and everything will be completely different.



I really can’t think about it too much or I get teary-eyed. It’s all starting to set in though. I’m not going to be able to just travel ten miles to see his smiling face anymore.



I know that goodbyes have to take place in order for life to go on, but gosh, why do they have to be so hard?

I’m going to miss him. I talked to my step dad this afternoon about how I always feel like I care about people more than they care for me. However, James said, “He may treat you like a sister but that boy would do just about anything for you”.

So Patrick, good luck with everything. I’ll miss you something terrible. Keep in touch over Facebook chat. Heck, maybe I’ll even be up for another two hour phone conversation! HA!



Don’t forget how much I love you!



"Don’t be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends."