It's been a pretty dang good weekend. Just yesterday I found out that Jocelyn is coming down with Nicole to Homecoming! So instead of just seeing one friend, I get to see two! I think I'm pretty spoiled. I was in much need of some girl time and I am sure they are too. This next weekend will be pretty eventful with lots of laughing and pictures. I'm very excited!



Mom and I went to drop Dylan and Jake off for their Nevershoutnever concert and then decided to do a little shopping. I got a few new clothing items which were of course, on sale.
I'm pretty excited about the skirt; I've been wanting one like it for a while. Then I also got just a cheapo shirt that I liked.



















I've been in new of a new pair of boots. I just have black suede ones and they're horrible in the snow. I don't even like wearing them out here because I don't want to get them ruined. So while at the mall, I tried looking for some brown high heeled ones to wear over tights and such but they're sooooo expensive. I saw someone wearing some similar to what I wanted and showed my mom. She responded with, "I have some like that at home that a neighbor gave to me a long time ago but they don't fit anymore". I got pretty excited but was still pretty scared. I figured they'd be all round toed and ugly. Turns out, they're adorable and fit perfectly!


Anyways, the job situation is lame. I got pretty excited about Maurices but I got recently got a letter in the mail telling me that they had just found someone and they'd keep my resume on file. Blah. So I guess I'll keep searching....

Oh and I've decided I must give up pop if I want to live. Ha. No but seriously, I think pop has been causing my heart problems...so I'm going to try really hard to cut it out except on special occasions...
Plus, I gotta have a good heart by Valentine's Day!

Lazy Days

All throughout high school, I never had a problem with zits. Perhaps an occasional one would pop up on my chin, or maybe one on my forehead, but seeing a zit show up on my cheek would be unheard of.

Nowadays, I am breaking out like a preteen. I'm 20 years old! I think it's a little ridiculous. I mean, right now, I'm a walking Proactiv commercial....no lie. I think I might go apply to be on one of the commercials and get paid the big bucks! Ha!

My mom actually bought me some acne set at Wal-mart last night. It's pretty embarrassing, to say the least.



Yes, I just look lovely in that picture, I know.

Well, now I'm off to watch a movie and eat pop tarts at one in the afternoon. Gross huh? Pop tarts are amazing though, but only in the toaster. At college we couldn't bring toasters so I would heat my pop tarts up in the microwave. I don't like cold pop tarts. They're just like pizza, they have to be heated up!



What is missing in this picture? Uh huh...that's right..a cold Mountain Dew....I'm not exactly the healthiest kid living at home. :D

Oh and by the way, I'm addicted to this song for some weird reason, enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QlHUXZE6qw

Things I feel and need/want to say to people

I think a lot about people, especially my friends. What they're doing right now, how much I miss them, if they miss me, etc. I'm just going to write a bunch of random thinkings down right now about people. I guess if you want you can guess which one fits you but it's not like I'm going to tell you anyways! More than one may even be directed at YOU! Oh and also, not everyone mentioned in writing is shown in pictures.

-You are truly my best friend.

-When we are together, I feel like everything is perfect.

-You're so weird but I wouldn't have it any other way.



-Keep going strong and don't let anyone get you down.

-I cannot wait to see you!

-Please be more understanding that I take everything to heart. Thanks.



-I swear, we would laugh for hours upon hours. I miss it, even if it did cause us to get in trouble a few times!

-I’m so glad we’ve kept in touch over the years.

-I envy you so much at times and frankly, I really don't have any reason to.



-You’re one of those people that I feel hasn’t left my side throughout everything.

-We are very similar and I’m beginning to realize this.

-Thank you for finally leaving me alone.




-I hope you don't hate me but sometimes it feels like you do.

-I'm sorry I hurt you.

-I really, really hope you're not crushing on me.




-I need to desperately call you, just to catch up. Sorry that I haven't gotten around to it.

-If I had it my way, we would talk for hours.

-We used to be so tight and you used to come over. I don't know what happened but I miss you friend.



-I am so happy for you and glad that you found someone.

-I miss sharing laughs in elevators and on the way to the store.

-I love our inside jokes!



-You are truly one of the best people I have ever met.

-I miss you a lot! I don't think I'll ever meet another people as unique as you.

-You are hilarious, so talented, and such a special person.



-You stopped texting me just as soon as I was getting used to it.

-I wish you hadn't changed so much.

-You were my motivation; you got me to do things that I didn’t want to do.




-In all honesty, no matter how much you've hurt a few people along the way, I'm sincerely happy for you.

-I'm glad we've become closer throughout the years.



-I wish we got to hang out during high school.

-I know for sure that I wouldn’t want to do it all over again but there are times where I start to miss you.



–I wish you would have been there with me to share the immature laughs during high school.

-I could listen to you laugh forever if you'd let me.

Catching up

As the weekend came, I figured it'd be quite a boring one. I was pleasantly surprised. On Saturday, Mom, James, and I went to help my stepsister Lesly move some of her stuff into her new house. That was pretty exciting I suppose. I could only carry the smaller stuff and completely skipped out on carrying the couch because I am WEAK. I need to work out those arms. After moving stuff in, we went out to eat at a local Mexican restaurant. It was delicious. I love Mexican. Anyways, Mom and I watched Mak, her son for a half hour or so. Let me tell you, I am a FAILURE with kids. Wow...I wish I was better but I think I'm always going to be horrible with them. I can totally baby talk to cats and stuff but with babies, I just can't do it.

Anyways, came back home around four to Dylan who was being lame on the computer. He soon got into a good mood though and wanted to have a photo shoot. I swear, this kid thinks of new profile picture ideas for Facebook every week. So mom took a ton of pictures of him while I laid on the couch and read Dear John! :)

Soon after I got a call from Christa asking me to spend the night. I arrived to her house around 8 p.m. or so. She showed me her new car and we sat in it for a half hour or so having deep conversations involving prom dates. Haha. Then we came back in and lounged around I believe. Around 11 or so the electricity randomly decided to go out. So Patrick, Christa, and I migrated to her room and laid around. It was hilarious. They actually got along and were cracking up. Loved it. Christa had lots of creepy stories to tell us and I get freaked out by this stuff easily soo...that was exciting! Hmmmm, called Andrew up and turns out I got his roommate instead of him. This low voice answered and I knew right away that that wasn't Andrew so of course, me being immature, starts to crack up. Poor guy, I'm sure I terrified the guy. Anyways, Andrew called me back and I put it on speaker phone. We all enjoyed talking for quite a while. After two hours, the electricity came back on, Patrick left the room, and we told Andrew good night.

We went to church the next day which was pretty exciting. The minister always randomly says hi to me during the service which is kind of embarrassing but I guess it's kind of cool. Haha. After church, we got back to Christa's house and ate lunch, and lounged around some more. Around 3:00 we went up to meet my mom and headed to the mall to find Christa a homecoming dress! Fun times right there. We went to Dillards and she tried on around 10. Most of them were too short and none really had that "wow" factor, so we moved onto Body Central. Sure didn't stay in there very long. Then we headed to DEB. There were a few pretty ones there. Cathy, Christa's mom, was pretty set on a coral colored one but my mom and I could tell that Christa just thought it was ok. I mean, it just wasn't the one. Yes, you have to be a girl to understand what I mean by the RIGHT ONE. Trying on dresses is a stressful situation!

Anyways, we headed to a few more places and finally, our last stop was JCPenneys. Christa grabbed a few short ones and went to try them on. She found a gorgeous short purple that everyone loved it. My mom soon came in with a bunch of random longer dresses which included a ugly blue one, a weird black one, and a pretty purple one. Christa tried on the purple one and it was gorgeous! Definitely...THE ONE! Haha. So that was fun.

Today has been pretty lazy. I've been cleaning and listening to Dylan say some Hamlet speech over and over again with different song melodies. It's kind of getting old. The kid is actually filling out a scholarship right now to avoid finishing his Hamlet project. He hasn't filled out any this year soooo that just shows how much he is sick of ol' Hamlet.

Ohhh!! Dylan and I also made a cinnamon strusel dessert pizza. We found a recipe online and experimented with it. It turned out AMAZING! The only thing wrong with it was that it was a little doughy. Other than that, amazing...

I didn't think this would happen..

Okay so I remember visiting my college's campus for the first time nearly two years ago. I visited with a teacher about the college and this is what he told me: "A lot of students come in kicking and screaming because they don't want to come and when it's time to graduate, they're kicking and screaming because they don't want to leave." I am proof that this quote is true.

Now that I have graduated, I regret wishing that time would go by quicker. Sad to say, I really miss it for numerous reasons.

I miss the friends that I made. I made some extremely good friends while I was there. People who shared the same morals as me. I really didn't think I would find anyone like that, but I did. I also miss the newspaper staff. They were all so much fun to be around.


I miss living in a somewhat small city. I'm a city girl at heart but now I'm back to living in the country. Personally, living in the country scares the heck out of me. I always hear strange noises at night and it freaks me out. Of course, I already have a big imagination so I run all sorts of scenarios in my head. At college I was able to sleep just fine, not worrying about what was lurking outside.

Another thing, which is really lame..but I actually got to wear good clothes! I always thought of outfits to wear the night before class and jewelry to match. Now that I'm back at home there really isn't anyone to impress. I don't really do anything during the weekdays so that leaves two days to wear decent clothes. Monday-Friday I basically lounge around in shorts and a T-shirt with my hair in a ponytail.

Right now I'm feeling rather unproductive and kind of just...I don't know...it's not depressed, I know that. I think I'm just feeling down and as if I'm losing myself. I haven't been out of school like this for so long. I'm used to feeling stressed, having big projects to do, articles to write, homework to finish, deadlines to meet, meetings to attend, etc. Now, it's just nothing. Yeah, I'm still on the job search but I just have lost all motivation for that already. I don't know what my problem is! Usually I'm so motivated, always trying to succeed but now I'm just being ridiculous and lazy. I mean, I guess it's good that I can admit it. So, I basically just miss college for putting me to work!


Yeah, that's my whining for tonight. Good news is my mom picked "Dear John" up for me at the library today! I'll most likely have it finished by tomorrow...such a book worm.

Getting myself out there

Today started the job search. It was basically a fail though. I went to lots of random different places but turns out either no one was accepting applications whatsoever or they were completely out of applications to fill out. However, I did fill one out at Pizza Hut so..that's good I guess. Also I stopped at a diner and they were hiring but were out of applications but told me that they'd call me to come in and fill one out. Yeah, I don't really have much hope. So Day one of job hunting was a fail.

I'm not sure when I'll start Day two....maybe tomorrow? No later than Wednesday, that's for sure. Maybe I should dress better? Haha...I wore slacks and a nice shirt today. Interesting.

On a brighter note, The Bachelor was on tonight. Sad to say, that was the one thing that got me through the day. Pretty pathetic that The Bachelor is what I look forward to....Jake (the guy on the Bachelor) is adorable. He smiles with his eyes and wow, he's amazing.

See what I mean? He's a cutie. Honestly, I don't think any of the girls on there are good enough for him. They're all full of drama but hey, what's the Bachelor without drama right?

Ohhh! Another exciting thing about this week is my TV schedule..
Tuesday - American Idol Premiere
Wednesday - American Idol
Thursday - Project Runway Premiere

Why yes, my life does revolve around reality television.

While watching tv, I found an AMAZING new movie that I want to go and watch. It's based on the book by Nicholas Sparks, "Dear John". Sadly, this is like one of the only books by Sparks that I haven't read! Crazy. So I'm thinking I might go to the library in the next few days and check it out. Otherwise, once I see the movie, I won't ever read the book.

Here's the link to the trailer if you were interested..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0fq5dd0C60

Nothing too exciting

So, I don't remember when I last wrote, but there really hasn't been anything to update you all on. I've started cleaning my room and my goal is to have my entire bed filled with things to take to Goodwill. I also have a gigantic trash pile starting. It's horrible because I am such a PACKRAT! I keep the dumbest things....like a schedule of JH scholars' bowl tournaments, track records, little notes from people. Geez, it's ridiculous. I also got started on the old boyfriends' drawer and found some lovely stuff in there. Dang, I was a lucky girl. I had some sweet boyfriends who wrote some adorable stuff for me! :P

Yesterday, did some more cleaning, watched a movie with mom, and then decided to go watch Avatar with Dylan and Patrick. Pretty sure I was the only one in the universe who hadn't seen it. Or, at least that's what it seems like....along with the Blindside. I still haven't seen that movie.


There we are in our hot glasses. They had a box thing to dispose of the glasses after the show. Of course, Patrick ended up coming out with his saying, "Hey, did you see the drop box?" I'm pretty sure he saw it and was just pretending not to. Anyways, Avatar was a good movie I suppose. I mean, better than I thought it was going to be. Yeah, that's not saying much considering I had no expectations for it whatsoever! Ha...

Tomorrow starts the job search. I am determined to get a job..I mean and I have to. I told myself that if I don't have a job by the beginning of February, I will move to Lawrence with dad for more opportunities..Maybe even work a clothing store? That'd be fun.

Well, I'm off to eat lunch at 1:30. Little smokies are what's on the menu for today! MMmmMmmMmMmmmmmmmMmmMmmMmMmMMMmmmmmmMmmmmMmmMmm

So many clothes..

I've known it for a while, but just recently is it becoming a big problem.



I have too many clothes. Why is this a problem you ask? Well, I have zero space in my closet now! Yes it's wonderful to have so many clothes and many options of what to wear, but when you have no closet space, it's nearly impossible to keep them organized.

I've always had plenty of room to store my clothes, until I started making my own money and discovered Goodwill Dollar Days. At Goodwill they have one Saturday each month where every piece of clothing is a dollar. Is that not amazing? I'm sure plenty of you aren't really into Goodwill and may find it disgusting. I, however, disagree. I have found some of my favorite pieces there! I've found some of the cutest dresses and shirts that you really can't find anywhere else. Some of the clothing I've bought in the past still had the original price tag on it!

Look at this!! This isn't even half of my closet and there's still tons of clothes that aren't even in there.....It's sooo smashed.

I mean, I guess it's good that I'm not one of those girls that has to buy the most expensive clothing. These days I find myself thinking that $10 for a shirt is expensive. Goodwill may have corrupted me.

Then there are the shoes. Actually, I'm not all that obsessed with shoes. At least, I don't think I am. The sad thing is that the shoes shown in this picture are the ones that I don't wear. The ones I do wear are laying around my room. They are the ones that I took to college and haven't got put away yet. Oh! My flip flops aren't shown either.


Accessories might be my weakness. I truly am obsessed with scarves. Here's a nasty pile of scarves and belts. Ugh, I don't know how to organize this. Look at the poor hanger having to hold all of that. I got a ton more scarves for Christmas so I'm not sure how the hanger is going to handle those newcomers. Anyone have a better idea on how to organize all this?

So, that's a goal to have done by the end of January - organize all my clothes, shoes, scarves, belts, jewelry, etc. Wish me luck!

Another year over and a new one just begun

Christmas is over. We just took our ornaments off the tree on Sunday so the bare tree has been still standing proudly in the living room. That is, until tonight. We finally loaded it out the door for the trash man to pick up.

I love Christmas time because it's such a magical time and everything just feels right. I'm sad it's over but I know it'll be here before we know it.

Now it is time to celebrate the new year. I always make new year's resolutions but there's only been one or two times where I actually wrote out a list. This year I actually did make a list and I will share just a few with you.

1. GROW UP - I am a very immature person and very naive. I need to step up and get out in the world and do something with myself..instead of just staying sheltered for the rest of my life.

2. EAT HEALTHY - I'm addicted to sweets, pop, etc. You know, all that horrible stuff for you. Yeah, I eat candy like it's candy. Anyways, I don't think I'll be one of those people to completely cut out pop or something completely for the whole year, but it wouldn't hurt to cut down.

3. BE MORE ADVENTUROUS - I'm not a risk taker. At all. This year I hope to not take things so seriously and not plan everything out. I need to be more spontaneous and just go for something, without having second thoughts.

Okay, so I had a list of fifteen things but suddenly I've forgotten the rest.

Where to begin?

Well, here I am....starting one more blog that I won't keep up with. First it was Xanga, then Facebook notes, and now I'm turning over to Blogger.

I updated Xanga everyday sharing EVERYTHING. It was very, very random.
Facebook included better written things such as poems that I was willing to share with friends.

I'm excited to get started with this blog though I'm not sure what I'll be writing about. However, I'm sure I'll be able to come up with something. So, we'll see where this goes...

I also need to take a new and updated picture of myself to post on this lovely thing.